Friday 23 March 2012

Seasons of Love

525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee. 
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife. 

What is it? Why is it that every time you start something new; you take that leap of faith into the unknown, you always end up feeling as if you have just spent the last week without sleep? What is it about new things? Is it because you stress when doing new things? Perhaps its because you need to invest more energy to begin with, like exercising; it hurts at the start, but then you get used to it resulting in your risen ability to manage your energy better. Or maybe, just maybe, its because you have to spend 3 hours a day travelling to and from this new thing…
Ive always seen myself as being pretty on top of everything when it comes to time management, I mean look at when I started the blog, smack bang in the middle of my HSC, yet I was still able to manage everything. So much so that I could study, rehearse, blog and sleep; AND still achieve highly. I think what has affected me so much is this new anomaly, this unthought of element to the situation, this extra factor. The train. Sure, I hear you say, ‘why cant you work on the train?’ Well I can, I am writing this very post on the train, sitting next to the human form of Adonis. (I keep making fleeting glances, just making sure that it isn’t my imagination that has conjured up this depressingly desirable demi god.)But with the train comes baggage, baggage that I have (rather unfortunately) been experiencing of late, such baggage as delays, and the horrid lack of seating. The past week I have spent all my train trips standing, I can assure you, it isn’t fun, and the most I have achieved while doing this is reading a paragraph(7 times). The main issue is that when standing, I cant get into my zone, I cannot focus, resulting in me reading a sentence, having absolutely no idea what I just read, thus re reading the sentence, then being asked how long it takes to get to Redfern, removing the said sentence from my mind, leading to a repeat of everything all over again!
These little occurrences have therefore made me alter my little schedule, now including alternatives. Things for me to do that don’t require much attention, energy, or focus skills For example, in the occurrence of no seating I will find one or two songs to add to my repertoire; I will text a friend who I haven’t seen in a while; I will make leisure time arrangements, etc. All very easy things, that when done, mean I don’t have to worry about later. If there is a real seat, then I do my subject readings, perhaps plan an essay, or maybe, hopefully, preferably, write a blog entry.
Therefore, in conclusion, lastly, with thanks(?)  :P I sincerely apologize for my lack of posting. I remember when I started the blog I always wanted to post once a day. It worked for the first few months, then my life became tragically busy. So now, I’m not making any promises, I will endeavor to post at least 2-3 times a week. I will however constantly update the ‘Musical Gallery’(Tumblr), just because it’s a little easier, and doesn’t require my brain too much. That way you can still get little insights into my mind. After all, pictures do speak a thousand words!



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