Once Upon Another Time

We love, we live, we give what we can give,
And take what little we deserve.

 

You know those film plots that see a friend fall head over heels for another friend? One of those plots that you watch, and then think how stupid it is? I mean, who would fall for their best friend?! Well, I can confirm that they aren't as stupidly unrealistic as first thought. In fact, they are quite plausible, and most likely the hardest type of love to push through. (I use the term love quite impulsively here because it most likely isn't love, but then again, whats to say that its not? Why is love such a touchy subject in society these days?! What even is love? Why am I going so far off track?! Potatoes?)

 

For the case in question, it is someone who I have know for a few years now, but we became really close last year because we did a show together. Its funny because we were actually brothers in this show, and that just connected us for 6 months, and we kept in contact after the show finished. I mean the crazy thing is, right at this very second I am receiving facebook messages from him. We just clicked, and unfortunately I clicked on a different level than he did. Understandably, because he was in a steady relationship with someone, but that just didn't effect my feelings. He was someone who I just fell for. Someone who just made me light up whenever he entered a room. Someone who made my life very hard for a good few months because I suffered a serious case of heartache. Amazingly, this person was someone who I never expected when I first met, to actually like! Amazing how things change.

 

I mentioned that he was in a steady relationship. Well, that is over now, however, its the person that he was in a relationship with that is the main problem in this situation. It was a girl. Yes, unfortunately I have given my heart to someone who will never truly accept it. Someone who will just casually put it on a shelf to look at, maybe a slight chuckle occasionally as he remembers past times, or perhaps pick it up in a few years, wrap it in newspaper and put it in a box. Ive certainly had crushes before, but I guess these have all been with people who I deep down knew I would never be with. This person is different. If the stars aligned, and he turned out to be on the same side of the fence as myself, it could very much work. It could probably work so much that we would be together for the rest of our lives, because we just compliment each other so perfectly! Am I gushing? I don't even know?! Haha

 

I guess I just have to move on. Even if there was a chance that he could be gay, I unfortunately doubt that he would ever act on it. Thus, I just need to power on. Live life. Try not to think about my impending 21st birthday at the end of the year, and hope that something comes up between then that allows me to say I had a meaningful relationship before I hit full fledged adulthood.